Lovely old playing cards and some reflection

Aren't these lovely? I forget where I got them from - probably some junk shop or other.... I love the illustrations, they are so sweet and rather old-fashioned. Well, nothing very positive has happened over the last couple of weeks - some rejection letters from publishers, and that's about it! Eek! Things are getting quite desperate really. I have some interest from two agencies, so I still have to wait, wait, wait..... None of the schools replied to my letters (rude) and nor did the local paper re. the comic strip (ruder still). Having that monthly salary paid into my bank account seems light years ago, and we're getting very good at eating on the cheap - it's the bills which are the big worry, as good food can still be had for very little, but not so electricity, oil and diesel. I have applied for the Historic Scotland job, and also to be a Supply Teacher, hmmm..... Secondary Schools can be very full-on places, but beggars can't be choosers, hey? It can be so hard doing this, as it's very subjective; when Important People say 'No, thanks', and you get rejection letters, it's hard not to take it personally. Then you get that awful self-doubt niggling away, 'I'm not good enough to do this; who am I trying to kid! ' I try and chase these feelings away, but it can be hard, can't it? I'm working on another Nursery Rhyme, so I'll get that up before too long. In the meantime, hope you're all happy, and life is treating you well.